Scared

November 15, 2009

So today DH met me after sacrament meeting at church as I came out of the Mother's Room from nursing LM and told me he met my mother out in the foyer and she was being escorted out by a big Tonga guy that we know. He said she was having the same "heart beat" problem that she was talking to us about two Saturdays ago and that she had a problem with about 4-5 years ago. He said he drove her home so we needed to take her car over to her at the end of church. It's really freaked me out! I went to the hall phone and called her. I asked her if she was fine and she said yes. She said she was just going to call the doctor and see what to do. She said she had the same problem happen while she was in the doctors office with him and he checked her heart 3-4 times and couldn't find anything wrong with it. She told me not to worry about it because there was nothing to worry about. REALLY though, It's my MOM!! How am I suppose to NOT worry about her. What makes it worse is the day she decided to tell DH and I that she was having this problem again and frequently she brought over LM's b-day card and present. She handed it to me and I said she was really on top of things. She said she wanted to make sure he got it in case she wasn't around. LOVELY...DH says not to worry about it and my mom will be fine. She just wasn't thinking using that phrase. I'm just not ready to loose my mom! I call her all the time and still need her. I just can't loose her and it breaks my heart not knowing what's going on with her. (okay, I'm crying again so I better stop)